today i went to angel's house to do our thesis, we got lost!! so i called up angel and asked for directions.. wen we finally got to angels house, we started working right away.. aftyer 10 mins dumating ung food.. wala na.. kain na. we didnt continue.. pero i gave them their assigned jobs.. angel ordered KFC..thanks poh!
around quarter to 2 i left angel's house.. i commuted by myself, for the very first time in my entire life!!!!! i had piano lessons in academy one.. di pa binibigay ung piece ko for the recital!!!! no0o0o0o.. anyway.. when i got home... dad told me that he had found out that i had commuted by myself from angel's house.. so now im grounded [but i can still go online, lol dad's asleep now]. aaargh!! no0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o....
AAAAHHH IM SO FUCKING BORED AND PISSED AND TIRED!!!! IM SNEEZING SO BADLY AND ITS MY FIRST DAY!! I WANT TO GO OUT BUT I CANT COZ IM GROUNDED!!!!
I WANT TO GO FOR FINE ARTS BUT MY DAD SAID NO! HELLO! WE ALREADY TALKED ABOUT THIS AND YOU ALREADY SAID YES!!! WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!?? THIS IS MY LIFE AND THIS IS MY DECISION TO MAKE! YOU THINK I CAN BE WHAT YOU WANT ME TO BE! GUESS WHAT? I CANT! I CAN NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU! I CANT BE A DOCTOR LIKE YOU WANT ME TO! MY GRADES ARE NOT HIGH! IM HARDLY PASSING IN MY SUBJECTS IN SCHOOL AND YOU EXPECT ME TO GO FOR MEDICINE?!!!!?!?!! OMG! WHY DO I EVEN BOTHER EXPLAINING!!! DAD WONT LISTEN AND AGREE WITH ME INFRONT OF MOM! NEVER! HE LOVES HER TOO MUCH TO HAVE EVEN ONE ARGUMENT WITH HER.. EVEN THOUGH HE KNOWS SHE'S THE ONE AT FAULT!!!!!!! YOU SEE HOW MY LIFE IS FUCKED UP?!?! I CANT EVEN DECIDE WHAT I WANT FOR MY FUTURE!!!! THEY'RE ALWAYS DICTATING STUFF THAT THEY THINK I CAN ACCOMPLISH!!!! IM NOT PERFECT!!!!

there.. i let it out.. can i go now?? ..thanks...

nicole's darkside uncovered at 3/11/2006 04:08:00 PM