its been so0o0o long since my last post.. well thats coz i was grounded.. well i still am.. but..uhm... uuhhh.. [*saliva dripping down the side of my open mouth*] i forgot.. :D

OKAY.. I HAVE TO LET THIS OUT


YOU ALL KNOW THAT I LIKE VINCENT AND IM REALLY GOING TO REGRET NOT TALKING TO HIM WHEN HE LEAVES.. I WANT TO BUT I CANT, ITS SO HARD FOR ME. I REALLY REALLY LIKE HIM AND I GET ALL NERVOUSE AND CONCIOUS WHEN IM AROUND HIM. THE THOUGHT OF HIM MAKES ME SWELL UP WITH JOY, HE IS BOTH MY INSPIRATION AND DISTRACTION. WHYIS IT THAT IM SO INFATUATED BY THIS PERSON?? WHY?? I CANT HELP IT.. IVE REALLY FALLEN FOR HIM.. I KNOW THIS SOUNDS CREEPY AND SO UNLIKE ME BUT ITS TRUE.. I THINK I LOVE HIM.. AND THATS BAD.. I DONT WANT TO BUT I CANT HELP MYSELF. I DONT THINK ILL EVER HAVE ENOUGH COURAGE TO TALK TO HIM OR EVEN SEND HIM AND ANONYMOUS MESSAGE.. GOD I HATE THIS FEELING!!!!! IVE NEVER EXPERIENCED THIS IN MY ENTIRE LIFE!! IVE ALWAYS BEEN ABLE TO TALK TO MY CRUSHES, SO WHAT MAKES THIS ONE SO DIFFERENT?? IS IT BECAUSE IM SO INTIMIDATED BY HIS SMILE OR HIS HAPPY PERSONA? IS IT BEACAUSE WE ARE SO DIFFERENT?? I DONT KNOW.. BUT EITHER WAY.. I STILL WONT BE ABLE TO TALK TO HIM. YES IM A WIMP. BUT I CANT KEEP MY FELLINGS BOTTLED INSIDE FOREVER, ONE DAY ILL JUST CRACK INFRONT OF HIM... nO0O0O0O0O0O0O0 THAT MUSNT HAPPEN.. I'D DIE OF SHAME.. GOD MY LIFE IS SO F'CKD UP!!!

nicole's darkside uncovered at 3/10/2006 08:56:00 PM